Exploring Contemplation + Mysticism Through a Queer Lens

  • When Letting Go Is Holding On

    When Letting Go Is Holding On

    “My dishonesty with myself and others hinders the honesty of all humanity, hinders the progress of all people.” Journal entry on 2/12/12 In 2012 I made the decision to let go of some certainty in my life for the sake of exploring something unknown. I quit my job. I quit my salary-paying, insurance-giving job full of security Read more

  • Dear Nashville Statement

    Dear Nashville Statement

    I serve a God whose artistry in creation is as vast as it can be within us. And this table is not for removing people or telling them to go away. The table was always meant to be shared. Read more

  • Responding to Charlottesville – Clarity from Chaos

    Responding to Charlottesville – Clarity from Chaos

    Day after day we see hatred rise up in the world and our anxious flailing towards ‘what to do’ increases. We become debilitated by both the anger/fear and the possibilities before us. We become blinded to the good we can jump in on. We fail to see the love we can be a part of. Read more

  • Creating From The Wound

    Creating From The Wound

    I live in Los Angeles, the epicenter of self-defining artists. And, like most people in this city, I consider myself an artist. However, unlike most people living in Los Angeles — I believe we’re all artists in some form or another. I’m in constant awe of the way people create, perform, produce, and refine their Read more

  • Trying To Say ‘God’ – Update

    Trying To Say ‘God’ – Update

    This month I’ve spent bouncing around the world from the Pelicam Film Festival in Romania (with the sponsorship of the US Embassy), to the ITMS (International Thomas Merton Society) Conference at St. Bonaventure University, and most recently the literary conference, Trying to Say ‘God’, as put on by Sick Pilgrim and Notre Dame‘s Institute for Scholarship in Read more

  • “Cassidy Hall found silence in an Iowa monastery and brought her discoveries to a new documentary” Des Moines Register

    “Cassidy Hall found silence in an Iowa monastery and brought her discoveries to a new documentary” Des Moines Register

    “A cricket chirped in the monastery’s library. That and the swish of a turned page, Thomas Merton’s “New Seeds of Contemplation,” was about it for sound. Cassidy Hall stopped on page 81. Merton did not write on the absence of sound on that page but the abyss of solitude in the soul: “You do not Read more


What would it mean to queer contemplation? To disentangle contemplative spirituality from heteronormativity, patriarchy, and Eurocentricity, and instead engage with openness, curiosity, and a little weirdness?

“Many poets are not poets for the same reason that many religious people are not saints: they never succeed in being themselves…”

— Thomas Merton, New Seeds of Contemplation