Exploring Contemplation + Mysticism Through a Queer Lens

  • The Sacredness of Now

    The Sacredness of Now

    In a world that bombards our senses, where is the sacredness we’re so desperate for? Read more

  • The Great Anesthetic of Modern Day Life

    The Great Anesthetic of Modern Day Life

    (Originally posted on The Huffington Post Blog.) “The world is like an anesthetic… people are not going beyond the superficial to the meaning of life — they don’t even ask that question because they’re caught up in that anesthetizing process.” A Monk of Holy Trinity Abbey, Utah I woke up this morning with an overwhelming Read more

  • When Doing Nothing is Doing Everything

    When Doing Nothing is Doing Everything

    As originally posted on Huffington Post and Patheos: “Knowing how to be solitary is central to the art of loving.” Bell Hooks This time, after jumping in my car, no maps were necessary as I navigated my way towards New Mellerary Abbey for the 10th time since 2011. Maybe I had gone enough times to know my way, Read more

  • The Blank Canvas

    The Blank Canvas

    (Originally posted on Huffington Post) “It’s so fine and yet so terrible to stand in front of a blank canvas.” Paul Cezanne Looking into the blank canvas of my day, I emerge riddled with the anxiety of uncertainty and restless with unknowing. Instead of basking in the delight of each day’s mysteries, I all too Read more

  • Creative Intention

    Creative Intention

    Before embarking on the winding roads leading to the Redwoods Monastery last weekend, I briefly stopped to rediscover a friendship that has been on pause for 14 years. This dear friend is an artist whose spirit and company can take anyone on an inward exploration. Her words are as striking as her movements and depending Read more

  • Slowing Down to Listen

    Slowing Down to Listen

    Just a couple of months ago, in November of 2014, I was on a work trip in New York City. Naturally, and true to New York City, my days were filled with travel, organizing, preparing, and little to no down time. While I was there, my friend Bill called and left a voicemail on a Read more


What would it mean to queer contemplation? To disentangle contemplative spirituality from heteronormativity, patriarchy, and Eurocentricity, and instead engage with openness, curiosity, and a little weirdness?

“Many poets are not poets for the same reason that many religious people are not saints: they never succeed in being themselves…”

— Thomas Merton, New Seeds of Contemplation